Even though I only remember parts of it, one of my best nights in the Ulfrheim happened in the spring which would mark the start of our 20th year. Our
Equinox, as my clan called it. The ceremony itself was simple, and quite dull: We had to take a vow in front of the council to uphold the laws of Fenrir, and offer a sacrifice of prey in his temple. Then, we could reveal the pack marking we chose for ourselves which, with ink and needle, would become a permanent part of each of us. I didn't dread the pain that much but
shit, on the back of our necks, really? I guess the point was to make it abundantly clear that ours is a lifetime commitment.
A speech, an offering, a tattoo, and out of the temple we go! Then,
then, the real fun begins. Each year, the pack coming of age celebrates, and throughout the town people join them. I'm not sure how or why it started, but now it's become kind of a rite of passage, as well as a way to start the new spring in good spirits.
Last year's celebrations got a bit out of hand, one of their pack members managed a third degree burn after some inappropriate dancing near one of the bonfires, and I've lost count of how many needed to be brought to a healer for alcohol poisoning. That's why my moms and Sigi would head back home right after the ceremony. It was kind of far from the festivities, so I thought it best for me to spend the night in our pack's cabin in the middle of town instead.
Stepping out of the temple, my neck hurt like a bitch. The town was lit with more torches and lanterns than on any other night of the year. People who weren't at the ceremony had already started with the music and the dancing and the drinking. They cheered when they saw us and passed some bottles. Folke turned to me and smiled before uncorking hers with her teeth.
- Alright Aelva, try not to die!
Yeah ok, my 95lbs packmate can hold her alcohol better than I can, sue me.
I'm lying down next to a fire. I can feel its warmth, but not enough that it's uncomfortable. Am I in the street? No wait, sand, I'm on the beach. My head's on someone's lap, lots of noise all around. Drunken conversations, cheering, laughing, people are having fun. I can hear Haftka dealing with some bloke's mediocre attempt at flirting not too far. He's wasting his time I can tell you that much, she's got zero interest in him, or anyone else.
- So you never tried? How do you know you won't like it if you don't try it?
- Hey you're right! How do you know you won't like me to rip out your throat if you don't try it?
Savage. She's got all of her twin's sarcasm with none of the chill. I chuckle, and hear Elenor's voice right above me.
- He's alive folks.
I stand up and pick up the nearest tankard from someone's hand.
- And I'm far from done!
- Aelva you're such a fucking lightweight you can't-
- Not with
that attitude!
I chug while people cheer, and immediately black out again.
We're all dancing around one of the bonfires, at least I think my packmates are all there? I could check but I'm not sure I can count to seven. Folke and Elenor are right beside me, and I can see Liebel and Evöra, who can't keep their hands off each other, on the other side of the fire. Pavael's literally got a bottle in each hand and he's slow dancing (to upbeat music) with his eyes closed. Hang in there bud.
Fire's pretty big, makes me think of someone who got injured with something like that... Maybe last year? Who knows, I sure don't. I don't know anything right now. I bump into something (someone?) and hear Jötun lash out.
- Watch your fucking step pretty boy!
Was that supposed to be an insult? Fuck yeah I'm a pretty boy. Tell me I'm the prettiest boy you've ever seen. I bump into him again. Just for kicks, because I like to mess with him and he gets annoyed so easily.
- For fuck's sake Aelva are you doing this on purpose?
- Wanna f-fight? Let's take this outside...
- We're on the beach.
- The stars are so bright, the moon looks so nice, hold my hand.
He lets out the most exasperated sigh I've ever heard in my life while Folke and Haftka drag me back to the other dancers.
I'm sitting near another fire, on the other side of town. How did I get here? Beats me. Someone yells.
-
AERE TIL ULFRHEIM!
Voices all around answer the same, a wave of echoes sweeps through the town as everyone raises their drinks. When it quiets down, I turn to Jötun and hit him with the best line my inebriated self can come up with.
- What’s a handsome p-place like you doing in a g-guy like this?
Suave.
- Are you trying to flirt with me?
- Have been for the past year but thanks for noticing.
I'm looking at the moon, struggling on my feet to keep my balance. Elenor tugs on the back of my shirt to get my attention.
- Don’t stare for too long or else you'll remember-
She screams into the sky.
- THAT NOTHING IN THIS
FUCKING WORLD MAKES SENSE.
I laugh because she's right.
So many things happening, but I can’t for the life of me remember in what order. Folke carries her twin on her back. A tankard is dropped in the sand. Evöra and Liebel hold hands. Someone cries and a friend rubs their back. Cheers and yelling. One of the musicians gives her instrument to a passerby to join the dancing. Jötun swears for some reason. Someone helps me take off my shirt. Pavael throws something small into the water. Elenor laughs. The rest is too faded to recall.
I sat up way too fast for someone who just had the night I had. I got a bit dizzy, and stayed still for a few minutes, re-acclimating myself to what it meant to be a functional person. The sun peered through the windows of our pack's cabin. My neck still hurt from the marking, but other than that I felt perfectly fine.
I took a look around me and noticed that three of my packmates and I had just slept on some pelts and cushions in our common space. Like, our beds were right downstairs yet
somehow we didn't manage to make it.
I stood up, which woke the others. Elenor let out an oh so graceful swear that sounded more like a grunt. Jötun pushed Folke off of him and pressed his hands to his temples. She hit the pelts with a thud, opened her eyes as narrow as she could and mumbled.
- I'm either
dying or already
dead.
Who's the fucking lightweight now huh.
- Well I don't know about you guys, but I'm feeling great! I'm heading off to get breakfast do you want anything?
- I hate you and everything you stand for.
I pet her head while she grumbled something else I didn't understand. I put on some pants, went into the bathroom, and looked at my reflection in the water basin before washing my face. Hair in a mess, hickeys all over, and bags under my eyes like you wouldn't believe. Cute.
As soon as I was done I went down the stairs and saw that everyone had made it back here the night before. Haftka was sleeping soundly in her bed, Liebel and Evöra on a couch (again, our beds are
right there, people), and poor Pavael was hunched over a clay pot, wearing nothing but his binder and underwear. Ah yes, the rejuvenating sound of someone throwing up. Good morning me.
- Hey bud, do you need something?
He spit a few times and answered with his most pitiful voice.
- I need you to never let me drink again.
- You say that every time.
- Yes but now I mean it.
- You
also say that every time.
I opened a window to let the cold air in. From here I could see the Moon Bridge which inspired our pack marking. The cabin was a mess. I started to clean up a bit, and heard Liebel yawn before getting up and helping me. We were used to do this together, as we were always the first to wake up since she never drank, and I somehow never felt hungover. I picked up an empty wine bottle.
- I think I remember someone dared me to chug all of this.
- No, Jötun said "give me back my bottle" then you said "you're not the boss of me"
then you chugged all of it.
I pressed my lips together, yeah that did sound like something I'd do. When we were done cleaning we started up breakfast and one by one our packmates joined us. At that time I had no idea how precious these moments were. I don't think it would have changed something if I did, but still.